Rosalie Hale

I'll never understand the point of actually making resolutions when the majority of people around here are going to break them in a few months. Why make them when you are going to forget about them soon anyway? Sure you can say your resolutions are to eat better and get on a better sleeping pattern, but what good is it anyway? I'll never understand this concept and I don't think I ever want to. So a another year has gone by. It's not as if we will see again anyway. All we have are memories and even they go away someday when we forget it all. I would say most of mine are gone, but who needs to know that...

Other than not knowing the concept of life around here, things have been alright for the most part. Finals were a bit harder than I expected, but I got through it and passed with flying colors. Unlike most of my classmates I assure you. But in my fashion design class I got inspired to design my own clothes and I went out the other day and got some fabric and I been making some scarves, shirts and the like. I even got the inspiration to add a bit more flavor to my high heels. It's a long process, so we'll see what comes out of it. I am even thinking of getting a job around here. I am hoping to find something that will gear toward my other interest, which is tinkering with cars, and before you all say I look too pretty to do so, I suggest you look at my brother and sister's cars. They did not get to be that fast overnight and it is because of me they look that good. Call me selfish, but I take pride in that feat. And before I ramble anymore I am going to look for something productive to do. I would say I will catch you all later, but I am not sure who would want to.

Later.

~Rosa

College. The one place I stayed away from for so long, and yet here I am. It's not that I don't want to be here, because I want to be here as much as the next person. But the feeling of unease just won't go away and those who really know me well enough know that when i feel uneasy my temper is the next one to fly off the handle. Maybe it's because I am not around my family that's making me feel this way or the pure fact that I don't have Emmett with me that is making me feel this way. I have not been apart from him for long periods of time and with him not with me, makes me feel like something is definietly missing.I hope that missing piece will become whole in due time. But all I know is that I don't like it. One thing's for sure though. Seems I have not lost my ability to stop people dead in their tracks these days. I doubt I will ever lose my ability to be really beautiful, or as some people put it, the most beautiful girl in the world. It pays to be this beautiful, but somone has to do it.

Other than feeling ill at ease lately, the college itself proves to be interesting. Everyone else seems to be more excited about it than I am, but that is okay I guess. My dormates are interesting, even if I have not seen them that much. I mostly have the dorm to myself most days, but that is okay since I hide in my dorm room, getting a sense of the classes I will be taking. Even if I have a degree in fashion design already. But I did manage to find the student center and bought all the books I need and all the stuff required for a college student. I even bought a computer, because knowing me, I am going to need it. Hopefully this college experience will prove to be better than it has been so far. I hate feeling so... out of place. I try not to let the people who stare at me weird not to get to me, but sometimes you just can't help it. If only I knew what they really thought of me and my family.. Maybe I don't want to know that. Oh well. I guess that is all for me. I'm in Rowe Hall suite 101 if you want to come and visit. That invitation is open to all family members.

~*~Rosalie~*~